Missing my sister like crazy

Thinking about this is crazy, I have to use AI to recreate a photo with my son and my sister that passed away because he never got to meet her. I try to live without her but it’s hard not to cry it’s hard not to get mad at life, because it’s like why take her from me and her family? Why break us that bad ? Some days I do wanna just fall apart just for a little bit you know but I can’t . I stay strong for my niece and nephew and my kids I live for them but I miss my only friend, my best friend, my sister so freaking bad it hurts like crazy and I hate the fact my son didn’t even get to meet his aunt and she never got to hold him and rub his belly. All bc his father wanted to do the most hateful thing possible and I hate that man so much man y’all wouldn’t understand but I hide the hate in front of son for a reason. I hate I can’t even text her when I am sad bc I got into an argument with my husband, I hate I can’t text her when I started school for the first time. I hate I can’t text her and just ask her how her day been . Hell I can’t even send her the tea 🍵 🥲 but I still talk to her hoping she can hear me I still see her in my dreams sometimes so that’s a plus right ((: I just want her to know she will never be forgotten #neverforgotten