WDYM just invest?? bro how…?
okayyyy so on part 2 of this journey.....part 2 isn't even about overcoming this thought yet... its STILL ON HOW STUCK I WAS... 😭😭
SOOO in my previous post mentioned that I knew I needed to do something with my money hereeeee!!!! and asked a friend to teach me how to invest... and he did .. but i did not do anything with the information... why? because me being me.. i don't do ANYTHING without knowing EXACTLY what im doing... i felt like i needed to know everything i can possibly know before starting to invest... so i didn't start... because of the crippling fear of the unknown...
so yeaaa 2 years later... i asked him the same question... can u teach me investment.... and yes ah he was right.. i did ask him that since y1... and i was already y3...
sooo what was the problem? why didn't i start? i simply did not dare... its not that i thought it wasn't important... im in accounting for goodness sake... i know its important.. i know inflation blah blah blah.. i know i NEED to... but i couldn't... 🫠🫠🫠
he said just dump it into snp 500... which is pretty fking good advice for a beginner... but damn i still could not do it.... 🥲
i was so so scared to lose my hard earn money (scared is a severe understatement) hehe? ... i have been working and working non stop.. and that amount in my bank account was my literal baby... seeing the number drop meant death to me... so to think that i have to take out money to invest??? and the investment might make me lose EVEN MORE?? nah uh no go man... not for me...
not just that... i was LOST... VERY VERY LOST... in this cold big scary world of investing?? how do i even start???? how to even invest? what does investment even mean?? where do i even buy this "snp 500" he was talking about? how do i read? how much was it? how do i know if i lost money? or "won"?? (crazy how i think its really like gambling) what is "snp 500" ??why did he ask me to j dump it in and close my eyes? whyyy??????? sosososo many questions.....
how can i just take money out of my bank? to put into this unknown thingyy? and close my eyes? how can i close my eyes when it’s literally my life savings 😭
it felt absurd. insane. reckless.
and honestly, as i’m typing this now... i can still feel the exact same fear i felt back then — that mix of anxiety, confusion, and GUILT for not being “brave enough” to start.
it’s not that i don’t want to invest… i just don’t get it 😭 AND I FELT STUPID and guilty for not being able to start... the irrational fear... and i knew EVERYONE ELSE around me is investing so why cant i just be brave enough to......
its funny how part 2 isn’t my breakthrough yet. it’s still the messy middle.
the part where i know what i should do, but i’m too scared to move.😧
because maybe that’s the realest part of the journey — the space between awareness and action.so yea… moral of the story? investing sounded easy till it was my money on the line 😭
but u know what… this is exactly where i found fulfilment.🫢😚
because i did overcome that fear — slowly, clumsily, but i did.
overcame it bit by bit, and now i’m teaching others to do the same…even my 18-year-old baby sis am teaching her HOW to start young and not just “u shud start young” heheheh
it’s wild to think i’ve become the person i needed back then. full circle moment hehehhehehehe🫶

































May I ask how u park money to buy SNP 500 and which platform?