He who stole the heart at a glance · Li Xicheng
He who stole the heart at a glance · Li Xicheng
Without telling my husband, I walked into that bar again.
My heartbeat rises up to my throat.
I just wanted to see the host I held hands with once a week ago.
While pounding like a 16 or 17-year-old girl, I secretly look for him.
A week ago, after a fight with my husband, a friend invited me to the opening of her new bar.
When I thought in my heart that it was not so different from the previous store, she opened the hidden door behind the big liquor cabinet with a grin.
The eyes of the young boys turned to me all at once. I was frozen in place.
"Because your husband won't find out."
At the same moment, the good-looking men on the sofa rose and stood in line.
I was pushed back by my friend and moved forward little by little while looking down. The moment I saw the tip of my shoe in front of me, my hand was taken.
Looking up in surprise, smiling eyes, high bridge of nose, slightly raised thin lips, and a face so beautiful that you doubt your eyes.
Hello, this is Lee Hee-seung.
In the past, it was foolish to say that the relationship between people is determined by a few seconds of gaze, but now I can not help believing.
Even when I go home and go back to my normal life, I can't get his face out of my head.
While typing the keyboard at the desk, I thought, "Is HEESEUNG an office worker like me during the day?"
While cooking in the kitchen, I thought, "Do I live alone? Do I cook by myself? I wonder what it tastes like, I want to try it."
On a sleepless night next to my husband, I imagine, "What is HEESEUNG doing now? Is she holding another girl?"
A man with thin lips is heartless, but his arms must be warm. His sleeping face must be as beautiful as the moon.
Li Xisheng, Li Xisheng...
"He's not around every day, so he needs luck."
I whispered before my friend opened the door again.
When I found Heeseung playing with ice with his fingertips at the bar counter, I thought there was a connection.
Hee-seung also noticed me and smiled more beautifully. The 183cm guy approaches and I look up.
"You're finally here."
That gentle voice almost melts my heart.
"How did you know I would come again?"
"Because you like me, don't you?"
If another man told me, I would surely laugh with my nose.
But he is Li Xisheng.
He has been stuck in my head for the past week.
When I was stared at by those dangerous eyes, I felt that all my emotions were being seen through.
On the white bed, all that remains is the sound of their breathing.
Just before the distance became zero, I hesitated and said it.
"You know I'm married, right?"
I regretted it the moment I said it. What are you pretending to be neat after coming to see the host?
Heesun put my hair over his ear and said with a laugh.
"Then, please hide me properly."
As he unbuttoned his shirt, he added, "We will continue to meet like this."
# yoitoki Mom Activity Experience by Li Xisheng The Dream Girl
※フィクションとして楽しんでください。 この話を書いていて一番強く残ったのは、「恋に落ちる瞬間って、案外ドラマみたいに派手じゃない」ってこと。暗い店内で、氷の音とグラスの気配、黒いジャケットに白いシャツの彼が、スプーンでデザートを口に運ぶ横顔。たったそれだけで心が持っていかれるのって、怖いくらいリアルでした。 私の場合、“隠し扉”があるバーという非日常が、気持ちのブレーキを外してしまった気がします。現実の生活では、役割（妻、母、会社員…）が先に立つのに、あの空間では「名前のない私」に戻れる。だからこそ、たった一度手を繋いだだけでも、記憶がやけに鮮明に残りました。 検索で見かけるような作品（たとえば「エスケープ・ルーム～無知な彼女は今日も買われる～」みたいに、閉じた空間で関係が進む系）に惹かれる人って、きっと“逃げ場”を探しているんだと思います。現実からの脱出ボタンが欲しい夜、扉の向こうに「別の人生」があるように感じてしまう。でも、そこには甘さだけじゃなく、息苦しさや罪悪感もセットでついてくる。 あと、「娘のすきぴに恋焦ガレ」みたいな背徳系・禁断系のドキドキって、刺激が強い分、読後に妙な寂しさが残りませんか？私は残りました。だからこの手の物語を読む（書く）ときは、“ときめき”と同時に「自分は何に飢えてたんだろう」って気持ちも一緒に見つめたくなります。 もし同じタイプの話が好きなら、楽しみ方のコツは2つ。 1つ目は、細部の描写を拾うこと。例えば「グラス」「スプーン」「デザート」「赤い文字みたいに目を引くサイン」「YOITOKIのロゴ」みたいな小物が、現実味を底上げして没入感を作ります。 2つ目は、境界線を“自分で”引くこと。現実で真似するかどうかは別として、物語の中では危うさを味わっていい。ただ読み終えた後に、生活へ戻るためのスイッチ（温かい飲み物、好きな音楽、短い散歩）を用意しておくと、余韻に飲まれにくいです。 私にとって彼は、現実の誰かというより「一瞬で心を奪う象徴」でした。だからこそ、扉の向こうの甘い言葉より、扉のこちら側でちゃんと息をすることも忘れないでいたい。そんな気持ちで、この続きをまた書くかもしれません。