22 years old and trying not to blame himself.

We've been out alone since we were 18.

At that time, it was just after the end of the Ministry of Education. We didn't continue to study, not because we didn't want to study, but because the financial conditions at that time made us choose to work first.

Since then, we've been looking for work, always taking care of our expenses, and almost never causing money at home.

Until he was 22, we decided to buy a house.

At the time, it was only thought that in Bangkok, the rent was expensive. If you have to pay every month anyway, it would be better to pay the money to pay the house, because there was money to spend money on travel. Normally, the bank actually approved.

So I had my own house when I was 22.

I thought I was on the right track, but soon after, I quit my job with a lot of problems at work, and the system and the feeling of exhaustion accumulated for a long time. We were unemployed for about two months. At first I was able to deal with it because I had money to save, but as time went on, the money in the account decreased from what I thought "still ok" to "no longer starting."

Finally, we had to find a new job and accept a job whose salary was almost 50% less than before, because the most important thing was to have an income.

But the problem is that the income is not enough to meet the expenses, so we have to come back to home for help, some thousands of months, some tens of thousands, and that's what makes us feel the worst.

Not the loss of work, not the drop in salary, but the feeling that...

People who should make their parents comfortable are the ones who worry them.

We are very disappointed in ourselves, but at the same time, I try to remind myself that our lives do not always walk in a straight line, sometimes we are caregivers, sometimes we are the ones who have to accept help.

I'm not good, I'm not successful, and there's a lot to worry about.

But I'm trying to get back on my feet with my own legs.

And hopefully one day we can repay those who helped me on a difficult day.

# Out of work # Life after losing work # Life aged 22 # Narrative of life like a graph