IVF round one 🎗️
in honor of #embracevulnerability , I wanted to talk about something that has been ever present in my life for a little over a year.
when i was first told i had suspected #endometriosis at 13yo, the Dr. told me that I would never have children. I prayed that despite my situation, nothing would stop me from being a mom.
once i got married, my husband and i knew we needed some answers to our #infertility and soon learned that natural conception on both of our ends would be near impossible. we were offered a shot at IVF & realized it was now or never.
we invested SO much energy into the process, and were left with an early loss of our child Eli.
we miss him so much and I am finally on the slight upend to healing from this trauma.
while we lost our first baby, we know our time will come. those struggling with infertility are not alone❤️
#Lemon8Diary #ivf #ivfwarrior #miscarriage
#lemon8challenge #womenshealth
My IVF journey, while filled with deep emotional moments, also brought up so many practical questions, especially around the physical aspects. When I first started, I found myself constantly wondering: 'Is IVF painful?' or 'What are these hormone side effects?' And then, the anxious wait to see if anything had 'stuck' was immense. I wanted to share some of what I learned and felt, hoping it helps others prepare for their own path. Is IVF Painful? My Experience with Discomfort Pain is subjective, but navigating IVF definitely brought its own unique set of physical sensations. The daily injections were less painful than I imagined – more like a quick pinch or sting, but the sheer volume of them could be mentally overwhelming. For the egg retrieval, I was under sedation, so I didn't feel a thing during the procedure itself. Afterwards, I experienced cramping, which felt similar to a particularly bad period pain, and a noticeable bloating for several days. Heating pads and plenty of rest became my best friends during recovery. The hormones also caused my ovaries to feel tender and swollen as they grew more follicles. It was uncomfortable, but usually manageable with loose clothing and gentle movement. Beyond the physical, there's also the emotional pain of the waiting, the disappointments, and the constant worry – that was often harder to bear than any physical discomfort. Navigating Estradiol Side Effects (6 mg daily) Estradiol is a crucial hormone in IVF, working to build up your uterine lining to prepare for implantation. I was on a 6 mg daily dose, and while essential for the process, it definitely came with its own set of side effects. For me, fatigue was a significant one; I felt constantly drained, as if I could sleep at any moment. I also experienced some headaches, breast tenderness, and quite a few mood swings – one minute I was feeling hopeful, the next I was teary over something small. Nausea was an occasional visitor too, especially in the mornings. I learned to listen to my body, making naps non-negotiable and trying to eat small, frequent meals to combat the nausea. Staying well-hydrated also seemed to help. My partner was a huge support, understanding my mood shifts. It’s crucial to communicate with your clinic about any severe side effects, but many of these are common and temporary aspects of the treatment. The Early Glimpse: What to Expect from a Fertilized Egg Ultrasound When people ask about seeing a 'fertilized egg' on an ultrasound, they're usually referring to the very early stages of pregnancy after embryo transfer. You won't actually see the microscopic fertilized egg itself. What we typically look for in those first scans is a gestational sac, usually visible around 5-6 weeks from the last menstrual period (or a few weeks post-transfer). Then, within that, we'd hope to see a tiny yolk sac, and eventually, a fetal pole with a flickering heartbeat. That first ultrasound is always a moment of immense hope and anxiety. It’s a moment filled with so much anticipation; seeing that tiny sac, even before a clear embryo, feels like a massive step forward. And then, the heartbreak when it doesn't progress, as was our experience with our little Eli, is profound and something you can never truly prepare for. Every IVF journey is unique, but sharing these practical insights into the physical side effects and what to expect during early scans, alongside the emotional rollercoaster, can hopefully make someone else's path a little less daunting. Remember, you're incredibly strong for embarking on this. Keep holding onto hope.

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