Feelings that still have no name
Episode 1: In the Kitchen at Dusk
The characters, groups, and places that appear in this story are fictional and have nothing to do with reality.
With the theme of adult love, it is a series that draws the subtleties of heart shaking and emotions.
The steam of the miso soup slowly rises to the top.
At the edge of the pot, the sound of bubbles.
At my feet, my 5-year-old daughter pulls my apron, saying, "Mom, are you still there?"
Outside the window, the setting sun was shining through the gap of the curtain, making a light orange band on the tatami.
A common sight every day.
But today, there was a small noise in it.
My phone in my pocket is shaking.
Looking at the screen while wiping your hand, the words "Thank you for your hard work today."
The sender is Mr. Saeki of the same part destination.
Who is tall and always speaks in a calm voice.
She is a little older than me and has a matte wedding ring on her left ring finger.
With just that one sentence, the heat glows softly in the back of my chest.
As soon as I tried to return "Thank you," my hand stopped.
It's easy to give back, but it's not easy what to do with this feeling.
At first I was just a colleague.
When I dropped my change at the cash register, he picked it up and handed it to me.
"This is 10 yen more," he said with a laugh.
That smile suddenly shook the back of my heart.
When you enter the shift together, the scent of softener drifting softly and the moment your name is called in a slightly lower voice,
I have a self that I can't help but become conscious of.
Of course, he also has a family.
I also have a husband and children.
I know it's something I shouldn't do.
But it cannot be suppressed by logic.
For me, who had almost forgotten myself as a woman in my daily life,
This feeling was as vivid as breathing back.
Guilt and happiness.
Hold both at the same time.
Every time the LINE notification sound rings, my heart beats.
However, every time someone mutters in the back of my heart, "Don't have this feeling."
even so...
I can still like someone.
That just made the world look a little different.
この物語のように、大人の恋愛は一筋縄でいかない複雑なものですね。私も同じように、忙しい毎日の中でふとしたことで心が揺れ動いた経験があります。特に既にパートナーがいる場合、その感情は一層深い葛藤を生みます。自分の中で“してはいけないこと”と理解していても、誰かの優しさや気遣いに心がホッとしたり温かくなったりすることもあります。 そうした心の揺れは、相手との距離感や自分の気持ちの整理に時間がかかることが多いですよね。私の場合、日常の中で自分を振り返り、どんな気持ちが自分の本音なのかを見つめる時間を作るようにしています。感情に正直に向き合うことで、少しずつ心が落ち着き、後悔のない選択へ近づけると思います。 また、家族やパートナーへの感謝や愛情も忘れずに持ち続けることが、こうした揺れ動く感情のバランスをとる助けになると感じます。大人の恋愛は複雑で繊細ですが、その中で自分を見失わずに歩んでいけるように、日々心の声を大切にしたいですね。