First Jobber, 5 months that taught us more than four years of college, "resignation" is not always a surrender. 🤍

Our first job...Only lasted five months.

Someone asked, "Why did you quit so quickly?"

At first we felt like we had failed because we had graduated. The first job should last a long time.

But in retrospect, we felt..

That resignation was one of the best decisions of my life.

This post is not an unfolding company and does not refer to any individual or organization. We just want to share our experience as First Jobber in case someone feels the same way to know that they are not alone.

We entered the job with the excitement of every new graduate. The day the company called to come to work, we were very happy. We thought that "finally got a job." The probationary salary was 12,000 baht, passed the pro to 13,000 baht. If there is a survey, the area will get a full day, 400 baht, half a day, 200 baht, and an allowance of 120 baht. In total, the area was about 520 baht. At that time, it was not addicted to money at all. Because I thought that "take experience first" would say that it was very wrong. The company is some hundred thousand high cost of living. 💔

The company's work system is all in One. There is no clear division of duties. Everyone has to do everything from paperwork, coordination, survey, summary, report, quick work, or whatever comes in. The advantage we really like is that the time is quite flexible. Any time, stop. Just work for 8 hours, such as 10 o'clock, stop at 1 o'clock (but do not exceed 11 o'clock 😂). This one we really like.

But on a lot of work days...It's normal to stop at 9: 00 p.m., it's normal for a whole week, it's Saturday to be called to work, and if the provincial expedition gets back to the hotel and has to clear the report until midnight at one o'clock, with no more overtime, everyone sees it as normal, we try to tell ourselves, "I'll get used to it."

Personally, I like to explore, travel, have seen many provinces, have found something new, but also exchanged by walking all day, walk until the thumb nail is bloodshed, and finally the nail is dislodged. At that time I still took pictures because I thought it was cancer, haha. But when I came back to see the pictures now, I felt that the body had tried to warn us for a long time.

What makes us not feel good is not the amount of work, but the atmosphere of work. We are new graduates. When there are things that we do not feel okay, the words we often hear are "young," "never see the world," "long time to work, understand." At first we believe that it may be us who thinks a lot, or every company will be like this, but often we start to not speak, start to doubt ourselves, and try to adapt on one side.

Another thing that makes us feel like an outsider is that we are the only people in the office who have graduated from another university. Most employees have graduated from the same university. When talking to each other, they talk about the professor, seniors, or university, and then they ask us, "Can you catch up with this teacher?" Before someone replies, "How can you catch up? You didn't finish at the same place as us?" We believe that he may not intend to, but when he gets hit often, it makes me feel like a black sheep. I don't dare to comment. And I want to say here that we didn't include the university because when we interned in Chiang Mai, most colleagues graduated from the same university (not M. But everyone is so cute, we are grandchildren, we teach everything, so we believe that in the end, it is more about people than institutions.

There is one incident that we can never forget. When we leave the boss, when we leave the job, when we come back to work, we can't find it. We can find it ourselves first, then have the elder in the office and 2 friends to help us find the office, almost all of us can't find. In the end, we have to Video Call the boss to tell us the position. During the call, the boss says, "Don't go to see that person's desk," because everyone knows that he doesn't like anyone to mess with the table... What I thought I would hear was "Oh, there it is," but what I heard was "How to work, find nothing," which was about to delay his work. At that time, we were confused because we did everything, but finally we were wrong.

Many times, too, there are people following us when we are on the trail from the other person, because if the other person does not send, we cannot continue to report, but finally the picture that comes out is "We are slow."

During the New Year, we were on our way home to the provinces, and there were still people following the work from afternoon, from personal chat to group chat. Our name tag said that everyone was waiting. Even though we had already informed us that we were on our way, finally, we had to open the computer. The New Year was like stopping...But not the best.

Another important reason why we decided to quit was the graduation issue, we gave a week's leave in advance, because many people would understand the NCPO. Graduation practice for many days, practice for weeks, but the company does not understand. It is said that "Mo Nong Strange, get a degree all week? Have opened the company for almost ten years. No one has ever taken a leave like this." Offer to take a job to Chiang Mai, but we are not comfortable. "How good is it that you do not let you fly back to work at some hundred thousand and fly back to graduation?" And finally, the company gave a leave of absence all year. And then that year, do not take a leave of business again. At that time, we thought that getting a degree once in my life, haha.

What struck us the most was the words of a colleague who said in front of me, "What the hell are you with me? You're not okay with you, are you? You can tell the owner of the company that you're not okay with you. You're not okay with your work."

To this day, we still remember that sentence, not because of anger, but because it was the first time someone spoke to us like that at work.

The last day we worked, we thought it would be the day we packed up, said goodbye to our friends and dispersed, but the boss said to us,

"The owner of the company is like this. Accept people to teach until it is enough to leave, easily leave." We listened, did not answer anything, but in the head there was a question.

Finally, we realize that we are not tired because of work. We are tired because we start to change. We are afraid of making mistakes, afraid of being cursed, afraid of being talked about for weeks, afraid of sending work, and then there is something wrong. Until the job is checked again, stressed, menstruation does not come, and start to be obsessive because of mistakes. We are not good at it, but we start to feel that we are "all bad."

That's funny...Almost three months after leaving, there's still a call to say hello to work. 😂

But even though there are a lot of bad things, the best thing we get out of this job is "friends." Five of us came in at the same time. Now, four of us have resigned. Today, we still have dinner, drinking, talking. If we hadn't met them, we would have been hard to get through that.

Today we look back and feel that we didn't quit because we worked hard, we quit because we started to dislike ourselves when we worked there. The first job didn't just teach us about work, but it taught us that "work" and "where we should be" may not always be the same place.

If we go back in time, we would choose to go to the same place again, because if we never find a place that doesn't suit ourselves, we wouldn't know what a good job should be, and we wouldn't know that choosing ourselves isn't selfish, but it's keeping our hearts before they break even more. 🤍

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