Four months of PR has been sitting here like a physical representation of my guilt, and I’m finally unboxing it. 🥲 If you’ve ever looked at your life and thought “why can’t I just do the simple thing everyone else does,” hi, that’s been me.
I live with disabilities and chronic pain, and it affects my day to day more than I talk about. Sometimes my body taps out, sometimes my brain taps out, and then imposter syndrome shows up like “who do you think you are getting all this beautiful product.” 😣
It’s this messy loop of pain, shame, and perfectionism where I’d rather disappear than show up imperfectly, and the result is… me avoiding the very thing I’m grateful for. 😞
To the brands who sent these packages and believed in me, thank you. 🙏🏻 I see the generosity and trust behind every box, and I’m sorry I didn’t honor it in real time. And to my girls who are always in my comments and DMs making me feel safe to be human, thank you for giving me my spark back. 🫶🏻
This video is me choosing honesty over hiding, and choosing progress over shame. I’m not trying to be the “perfect” creator anymore, I’m trying to be a real one. 🩷
If you relate to the chronic guilt of being behind on life, tell me what you’ve been avoiding lately so we can all exhale together. 😮💨
Thank you brands for these gifted products:
@rarebeauty
@winky_lux
@fableengland
@naturium
@toofaced
@idewcare
@kajabeauty
@immeme_official
@politesocietybeauty
@ffern.co
@littlewordsproject
@oliveandjune
@glamnetic
@cerave
@modernandchic
@rocskincare
@lanebryant
@torrid
@caciqueintimates
@ropedropdesign
#girlhood #chronicillness #chronicpain #chronicillnessawareness
Living with chronic pain and disabilities often means navigating a complicated relationship with productivity and self-worth. I’ve found that avoiding tasks I’m grateful for, like unboxing gifted products, stems from a mix of physical exhaustion and mental battles such as imposter syndrome. The pressure to appear “perfect” online can trap creators in a cycle of guilt and avoidance, especially when managing invisible illnesses. I’ve realized that accepting my limitations doesn’t mean giving up—it's about redefining progress on my own terms. For example, when my chronic pain flares up, I allow myself the grace to rest without feeling ashamed. This mindset shift has helped me reconnect with the joy behind what I create rather than just the output. Sharing this process openly has been therapeutic and empowering. It reminds me and others that being real and imperfect is a form of strength, not weakness. Many brands have supported me generously, trusting my voice despite the ups and downs, and that trust deserves to be honored—not with perfection, but with authenticity. If you’re struggling with similar feelings of being 'behind' or overwhelmed by expectations, know that it’s okay to step back and lean on your community. Your story, just like mine, is valuable, and sometimes pausing to exhale together can reignite the spark needed to move forward.
you deserve everything 🥰