4 Months in ✨
A little update .. been getting more into makeup and being more girly which is ironic because at the same time I want to be more involved in male related activities and things related to my son like getting him in to sports for the sake of his health and helping him with social interaction.. I’m already reminding myself to enjoy this time because any time with my family is precious.
Whenever the next baby comes especially if it’s a girl or another boy I’ll be praying for their safety the whole time and mine because this delivery was my first and I was scared I can only imagine what women go through when things go wrong or when it becomes more painful for them like being bed ridden longer .. etc .. in the beginning I fell with my son in my arms because I was attempting to breastfeed on a chair that had never broken on half on me before and I fell back on my back but I held on to him the whole time and my husband came to grab him from my arms .. this was around the first month of giving birth .. I’d say the day after I left the hospital maybe ..
then yesterday on our way to get out the crib I was going to get out the car because it was hot and my hubby had just turned the ac on and I had the baby in my hands long story short .. somehow the diaper bag handle was wrapped around both my feet and it was long because we didn’t shorten it enough nor put it away from my feet enough in time for me to notice it was too late ..
I ended up falling out the car with the cord wrapped around my feet and on my knees on to the concrete with my son in my arms and I almost fell forward but I swung my torso back as I fell so I wouldn’t put my weight on him .. it’s funny how my instincts kicked in quickly this time but other times I’m clumsy .. we’re not perfect .. mommy brain is real .. I try not to be hard on myself because
I spiral at times and self criticism only makes me feel worse so it’s definitely been helping me going to the gym and just overall dancing in front of the mirror more with my favorite music my recent song being Promiscuous by Nelly Furtado.. and also been wearing heels around the house at random times until my feet get tired haha to train for my sisters wedding in August.. all in all I’ve been doing my best to juggle it all .. I move in May so it’s a lot right now. #maternityleave #houstonmom #movingstates #boymomlife #momlifeunfiltered
Reflecting on the first four months of motherhood, it's clear that the journey is filled with a mix of excitement, challenges, and personal growth. Managing the balance between nurturing a newborn, fostering family connections, and taking care of oneself can be overwhelming but deeply rewarding. One of the most significant elements highlighted is the protective instinct a mother develops, especially when unexpected accidents occur. Falling with a baby in arms, though frightening, showcases the incredible strength and quick reactions driven by maternal love. These moments emphasize the importance of creating a safe environment both at home and outside—securing items like diaper bags to prevent tripping hazards, and ensuring car safety when traveling with little ones. Physical recovery from childbirth, especially with complications like labial tears requiring stitches, can be daunting. The return to fitness activities, such as gym workouts and dancing, not only helps regain strength but also improves mental well-being. Incorporating favorite music, like Nelly Furtado’s "Promiscuous," into these routines adds joy and motivation, reflecting how personal interests can be weaved into postpartum care. Balancing interests that may seem contrasting—embracing girly makeup and heels while also engaging in activities typically associated with boys, like sports—demonstrates the multidimensional role many mothers play. Encouraging a child’s involvement in sports benefits their health and social skills, contributing to holistic development. The emotional aspect of motherhood, including moments of "mommy brain," self-criticism, and the urge to spiral, is a relatable reality. The practice of self-compassion and choosing uplifting distractions instead of harsh judgment makes a profound difference. It's also a reminder that perfection is not the goal; resilience and love define the journey. Upcoming life transitions, such as moving states and preparing for family events like weddings, add layers of complexity. Yet, these transitions can be opportunities for renewal and growth when approached with a positive mindset and support network. Lastly, looking forward to future pregnancies brings a mix of hope and concern. Praying for safety and health reflects a deep maternal care that evolves with each experience. Sharing these stories openly not only normalizes the struggles but also connects mothers, fostering a community of understanding and support.
You are doing great.. don’t forget that we are all on a journey sometimes you might look over and see someone way ahead of you but don’t focus on them you will get where you want to be!!! Never rush life!!