Acknowledging the silent pain
Part 2️⃣….Unspoken Wounds✨
Some wounds are never spoken but weigh the heaviest on our hearts. We walk through life carrying pain that feels too deep to share. But God sees, and He heals.” In Psalm 34:18 David says– ‘The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.’ I remember a about a year ago I secretly asked myself why can’t you get closer to God. To be honest I couldn’t even answer but I asked the question….and then one day maybe shortly after my cousin and I had been into it for weeks we were secretly dating and it hurt me to the core to open up and let anyone know about it. The burden was so heavy I started to become so isolated and embarrassed with my actions. Until one day all I could do is cry and this time I cried to God. Hear me out we may not always hear God or feel him but that night I knew he was right by my side holding me. All I could do was cry in silence and I let my heart do the talking and I didn’t say anything out of my mouth (I really couldn’t i was crying to much) it was all coming from the thoughts in my head saying they were saying “i’m tired, i’m tired of having it all together when I don’t, i’m tired of living a fairy tale story, i’m tired of being me, i’m tired of heart break after heart break, i’m tired of std after std, I want people who see me as someone they love and just asked him for strength, someone who doesn’t take my kindness as weakness, a mother who understands!! her growing child(ren)” the list could go on and on…but in the middle of my thoughts going crazy I heard “I got you” which was hard to believe because it was so clear from the other thoughts that were in my head but after that I stopped crying and wiped my tears and I felt cleansed like I took a shower and washed my hair and face and shaved that day my nose felt like it opened and I could feel someone near me but no one was there. Trying to heal is hard and trying to heal when you have secrets that can’t come out because I am to embarrassed to talk to God about it or anybody else but once I pulled him in my circle and he didn’t judge me for my careless actions or the countless times i didn’t listen to his voice in my head and he doesn’t see me for flaws or all the men I dated and slept with for no reason ….ughh to not to mention times when I disrespected my parents by sneaking out. I finally realized last year that some burdens were self inflicted and I apologized everyday to God…well still apologizing…for not walking with him and he helped me through all my tough times and I acted like I didn’t see him until I was sad and needed company. We should try to be better in our lives and those unspoken wounds you and I have are not our wounds any more. Give it to God!!
☀️Writing Prompt: “What is one hurt you’ve kept in silence? Write a letter to God about it.” Drop a ‘🫶🏽’ emoji if you’ve ever carried silent pain but are ready to heal.
Silent pain can often feel overwhelming, leading many to struggle alone without sharing their burdens. Healing is not just about acknowledging these feelings; it involves reaching out to God in heartfelt prayer. In times of distress, Psalm 34:18 reminds us that 'The Lord is close to the brokenhearted.' This comfort can manifest through honest self-reflection, especially when we confront our own feelings of isolation, embarrassment, or regret. Turning to God during these moments, even in silence, can provide a profound sense of support and understanding. Expressing these emotions, whether through letters to God or journaling, can significantly ease the process of healing. Additionally, connecting with communities that share similar experiences can foster a sense of belonging and validation. Embracing vulnerability and sharing our struggles can pave the way for personal growth and spiritual fulfillment. Remember, the path to healing is often shared, and there are many who understand and are willing to listen. Create that safe space for yourself and encourage others to do the same.
