Letting go never felt safe or voluntary; it felt like abandonment, survival, or being left behind. I’ve experienced repeated painful losses and became emotionally vigilant. I replay conversations, hold onto hope, revisit memories, keep emotional doors cracked open — not because I enjoy suffering

Occasionally, I become disenchanted with my own self-deception. The conflict between emotions and rationality. The anxiety. Simply coexist and allow others to do the same, releasing unnecessary burdens. It's merely existence. Existence is for those who are alive.

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