I Was Never Meant to Land
They keep asking me, why I don’t stay, like staying is something natural, like gravity works the same on, everyone..
but I’ve always felt lighter than that.
Not broken, just not built for the kind of weight,
they call love...
I can stand beside it, study it, trace the outline
of the way people fold themselves, into each other.
But when they reach for me, with that same expectation, something in me, steps back.
Not out of fear..
Not out of hurt..
Just recognition..
Like realizing..
You’ve been cast in the wrong role, and everyone else
already memorized the script.
I don’t ache for closeness, the way they describe it.
I don’t feel incomplete, without someone’s hands
holding mine into permanence.
I am whole, in a quieter way..
Though, they look at me like I’m missing something
like my wings are a flaw, instead of the reason,
I never fall..
Sometimes, societal norms make us feel like we have to fit into a specific mold, especially when it comes to relationships and love. From my own experiences, I’ve realized that not everyone is meant to follow the traditional path of attachment or seeking closeness through others. It’s perfectly okay to find comfort in solitude and to feel complete on your own. In my journey, I noticed that when people ask why I don’t stay or commit like others, they often assume it’s about fear or pain. But for me, it’s more about self-recognition and understanding that my emotional needs don’t align with common expectations. There’s a sense of peace in embracing who I am — feeling 'lighter,' as if gravity itself pulls differently on me. What some may see as a flaw, like having 'wings' while others feel grounded, can actually be a strength. It means I can rise above the pressure to conform and find freedom in my own way. The idea of love as a weight to carry might work for many, but for others, it’s about flying solo with a quiet wholeness inside. If you ever feel like you don’t fit the typical love story, remember that your value isn’t dependent on someone else’s hands holding you down. Being whole on your own is a powerful state of being, and embracing that can bring clarity and satisfaction. Love can be many things, including the love we cultivate for ourselves.
