To Be Continued
The thought of letting you go
Bruised me deeper than I can confess.
The first day, I wore a mask of calm—
A quiet lie I whispered to my own reflection.
But by dawn’s soft light,
Thoughts of you had rooted in my mind
Like roses tangled with lilies,
Blooming reminders I didn’t ask for,
But can’t bring myself to uproot.
I move through my day
Haunted by the phantom of your good morning,
Grieving the way you’d check on my spirit
Before I even knew it needed tending.
And still, I wrestle with the angel and the devil
Perched on my shoulders,
Pulling me apart in their quiet tug-of-war—
Because I am loving you deeper than I planned,
Wanting you harder than I dared.
But this love—
This love with its borders and caution tape,
It wounds me in invisible places.
It makes my soul weep in the dark,
And my heart bleed in the quiet hours
When no one is watching.
I feel like I’m on life support,
Breath shallow, spirit tired,
Clinging to something that keeps me alive
And slowly kills me all the same.
How many times have I picked up my phone
Just to set it back down,
Longing to type I was just playing—
I don’t want this to end
Hoping you’d do what you always did—
Text until I answer, call until I surrender.
I don’t know—
I want you to try harder,
But I also ache for you to leave me be.
This dilemma has my heart
Choking on tears I can’t swallow.
And by the time this poem ends,
Maybe you’ll understand
How loving you with restraints
Feels like living on life support—
Breath shallow, spirit tired.
You gave me more than butterflies—
You gave me something I couldn’t even name,
And now I’m lost—so lost—
At the thought of going on without you,
Knowing I could never just be your friend.
I found you, and in you
I found a different kind of love—
The sweetest affection I ever tasted
Without even needing to touch skin,
The kind that made me want to stick to you
Worse than glue and honey.
To be continued.


































































































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