i’m not being myself
“what’s on my heart?” is the question i’ve been asking lately. i was finding it so hard to figure out what to do in so many aspects of life. and i kept asking what’s right? what’s wrong? what *should* i do? i sought inspiration. i watched the videos. i reached out for help. i consumed. and yet, all these logical ass questions and not once did i ask: how do i feel?
how do i want to feel? what do i want to do?
without those questions, i just danced in my mind without true clarity. but the moment i took a step back and just said “what’s really on my heart?” is when all these answers grew clear. the words didn’t make too much sense. the journal entries a bit scattered. imperfect, non sensical, not a fully laid out plan. but the simple question dropped me deep into raw feeling.
the more i asked, the more stories came up and i wrote it all down as stories. what’s on my heart? “grief. yah, that was actually fucked up” what’s on my heart? prioritizing our ancestors stories. what’s on my heart? freedom. what’s on my heart? being tired of feeling like i’m drowning. what’s on my heart? being excited to go home. what’s on my heart? vacation
just by answering that question over the past few days, i’ve snapped myself back into union and grown closer to what’s really me. what i like, what i don’t like, what i want to do. what’s authentic is *felt* first. but that can only come forward if you’re emotionally honest with yourself.
sometimes we know the emotional answers may provide a bit too much clarity. if it stays mental then you can continue a line of questioning that your heart doesn’t even have to assess. bc you know some questions are ones that wouldn’t even make it through your hearts doors cause your heart knows.
that’s what being heart led looks like — listening to the feeling & sitting to hear what’s beyond all the mental notes drawing you into rationality. i’m pretty sure all my best work & decisions have come from being emotionally informed. it’s raw & it’s real in such a way that only the heart can bring it to fruition.
what on my heart is what’s authentic to me. sometimes you just need to feel to remember who you are
In our fast-paced world, it’s incredibly easy to lose touch with our authentic selves. The noise of external expectations, societal pressures, and constant mental chatter can leave us feeling disoriented and unsure of what we truly want. This experience of not being oneself is often marked by confusion, distress, and a compulsive need to seek validation or inspiration from outside sources. One meaningful way to realign with your authentic self is by tuning into the deeper feelings hidden beneath surface thoughts. This practice involves asking yourself intimate questions such as "What’s really on my heart?" and acknowledging whatever responses arise, no matter how scattered or imperfect they seem. The key lies in emotional honesty—bravely facing grief, freedom, exhaustion, or excitement without judgment. These feelings serve as compass points guiding us toward what authentically matters. From the OCR content, some signs that you might be misaligned include excessive outward reaching for comfort rather than affirming your own inner voice, feeling constant hesitation or fear around your desires, sacrificing your own needs, and struggling with self-honesty. Recognizing these signs and gently correcting the disconnect helps foster greater authenticity. Taking time to journal or narrate stories that emerge when you ask "What's on my heart?" allows you to release mental confusion and connect with your raw emotional self. Being heart-led doesn’t mean ignoring logic but balancing rational mind with emotional truth. Many fulfilling decisions and creative achievements stem from this raw, emotional clarity. Remember, authenticity is a feeling first—felt by the heart before it can be translated into plans or actions. Make space regularly to quiet the mental noise, listen deeply to your emotional self, and answer with honesty. This ongoing practice nurtures self-growth, builds resilience, and helps you reclaim your identity. Ultimately, sometimes all we need is to feel deeply and authentically to remember who we are. Embracing this heartfelt journey can transform feelings of drowning or disconnection into a powerful experience of self-union and freedom.
Needed this 💛