Merit "=" liabilities "that must be liquidated to death.
I was a child whose early life, mother and father had to give up goodbye.
I didn't live with my mother and father, but my aunt, my father's sister, adopted me and sent me to graduate with honors.
All my time in school, I was never unruly, never on vacation, and I had to do all my chores because I always realized that without my aunt there would be no place.
I grew up with the words to fill my ears every morning that
"Remember, the money you spend is my sweat."
When I graduated and got a job in a big company in Bangkok, I intended to repay my aunt's grace by sending me money every month for 50% of my salary, which I thought was the right amount and I still had enough to build the future.
The pressure started to come when I started demanding more and more.
I often told the whole neighborhood that I was so rich, I did a good job in Bangkok, that sometimes the people in the village borrowed money, and I said it all over because I "wanted a face," called to ask for more money to lend to others, and of course I never got it back.
Sometimes I want to buy a present for myself, or I want to go out with my friends, and I post social media, post pictures, and I always comment, "There's money to travel, so rich," or "There's a lot of money to travel, but there's no money for me."
One day I came to know that the money she saved for her aunt, she didn't spend the necessary money, but to raise my aunt's real son (my cousin), who is addicted to drugs, games and gambling. My child won't work, but I will never scold your child for love and indulgence.
One day I refused to pay my aunt's son's bet, and she cursed me, "I forgot."
"When the wings are brave and kick the head, send the babysitter."
"Ungrateful man."
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I used to gouge an old account book that wrote down my tuition and belongings since kindergarten and hit my desk and said,
"In total, how many lives will you spend back on me?"
Now I'm confused and thinking, what should I do next?
- Grateful to continue to maintain the "Grateful Grandchildren" image.
- Stop and walk out and be reviled as an ungrateful man.
To really live my life.
I'm tired. 😢