✨☀️ just my morning thoughts / spice-fuel
Why is it some days we can bust out of bed run to the bathroom, take our showers, completely get ourselves clean from head to toe, brush our teeth, brush our hair, get dressed, and then the rest of the day just seems to come naturally ??
Then there are other days where we bust out of bed take that shower, and then we’re left standing there naked, in our bedroom with a wet towel clung to our chest.
Other days we are lucky just to set our feet on the floor beside the bed. We are even lucky to get up out of the bed. Do you know how many people I’ve met that made me feel not alone in the fact that I would refuse to get up to go pee, because I just wanted to lay in bed and suffer? I had no idea what I was suffering from since there was no clear trigger or event, but all I knew is that I wanted to stay in my bed and that if anybody tried to get me out, or better yet any bodily function - it was going to have to wait until I decided to get up and go.
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I do my best to follow my own advice and keep my space tidy, but I feel I get overwhelmed with the amount of stuff I have that has been accumulated throughout my life mostly through impulsive buying . I have been healing from that, but now it’s time to let go of all these material things. That’s how I feel right now anyway.
Today I feel like I want to attack my whole apartment and throw out as much nonsense as I can.
I wonder if this feeling was triggered by somebody telling me my home felt like a home, and that it was cozy and warm. Pervasive drive for autonomy was possibly triggered, and now I am interpreting “cozy and lived in” as cluttered and unkept. Or maybe I want my home to look sterile now just bc someone called it cozy. I wanted cozy but now that someone mentioned it - it’s like ok time to uncozy this home…
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