I feel as I don't exist

It took having a couple months off to really see that I am an afterthought to 98% of the people I know, and called friend.

I reached out, I made plans only for them to fall through. Oh I'm sick suddenly. Oh something came up. Or just straight ghosting which is worse.

So I went on a mass delete spree. Of social media, phone contacts, everything.

And now, I go back to work in a couple weeks, and I will work on creating new friend groups.

I am tired of being the person people pity invite, or last minute invite, or just don't remember.

I think a lot of it is social media has destroyed how we communicate. But we also need it nowadays to possibly even begin friendships.

Either way. I'm here. A little true crime, nature, car spotting, fishing, hiking, gardening, down for whatever loving sober little wierdo. Just looking out for others like me.

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