Amor propio 🤍

We all have those moments, don't we? That familiar feeling of a 'knot in your throat,' where the emotions are so overwhelming, you physically feel them. For a long time, I used to try and push it down, refusing to cry because I thought it showed weakness. I’d put on what felt like an 'angelic smile,' trying to convince everyone, and sometimes even myself, that everything was perfectly fine, even when I was 'dying inside.' It’s a common struggle, one that many, perhaps even chelitha360 in their own way, have explored in their expressions. But I've learned that true strength isn't about never crying; it's about acknowledging those feelings and giving yourself permission to feel them. It’s about being brave enough to dedicate compassion to yourself, especially when you're struggling. This journey of 'amor propio' – self-love – isn't always easy. It's messy, it's vulnerable, and it requires a fierce commitment to your own well-being. It means understanding that sometimes, tears are a necessary part of the healing process, not a sign of failure. So, what changed for me? It was realizing that 'this one's for me.' It was actively deciding to nurture myself, not just when things were good, but especially when they were tough. When that 'knot in your throat' appears, instead of suppressing it, I now try to sit with it for a moment. Sometimes, a good cry is what’s needed, not because tears solve problems directly, but because they release pent-up emotions and create space for healing. It's about processing, not just pretending. I started dedicating small acts of kindness to myself. This could be anything from taking a mindful walk, listening to music that truly resonates with my soul (perhaps discovering new artists or voices that speak to my experiences, much like the profound message I found that led me to this reflection), or simply giving myself permission to rest without guilt. It's about recognizing that putting on that 'angelic smile' constantly, while trying to appear strong, can be incredibly exhausting. It's okay to drop the facade, even if just for a moment, and be honest about how you're truly feeling, especially to yourself. If you're feeling 'dying inside,' remember you're not alone. Reach out to a trusted friend, a therapist, or even journal your feelings. The act of writing can be incredibly cathartic and a powerful way to process emotions. What are you dedicating to yourself today? Maybe it’s a moment of quiet reflection, a healthy meal, setting a boundary that protects your peace, or simply reminding yourself that your feelings are valid. Every small step towards self-love helps loosen that knot in your throat and brings you closer to a genuine smile, one that comes from a place of inner peace rather than a disguise. Embrace your journey, one dedicated act of self-love at a time.