You wake up with a to-do list, a plan for every task, and a contingency for every contingency. What nobody sees is that you made all of that at midnight. Because you couldn’t sleep. Because the thoughts wouldn’t stop. That’s not Type A. That’s not organized. That’s anxiety. 🌙 For me it’s a

As a mother, you ARE your baby’s nervous system. The most important part of parenting isn’t just being present and showing up. It’s also taking a moment to calm yourself so your baby can feel the calm. Last week my daughter was overtired. For her that looks like crying, screaming, and throwin

There are thoughts postpartum moms have that nobody warns you about. Like walking by the stairs while holding your baby and thinking “what if I just dropped her.” Not because you want to. Not because you would. But the thought is there. That was me. We have stairs to our bedrooms AND stairs t

Nobody warned me what it would actually feel like. 💛 When our daughter was about two months old I got sick. I asked my husband to take the majority of care that night. He said "I need sleep too." That one response sent me into full hyper-independence mode. Fine. I'll do it myself.

I have snapped at my partner over something minor. It was not the first time, and probably won't be the last. Last time I did it, I sat with it to ask: what is actually happening here? Grief. That is what was going on. It is not always attached to a funeral or death. And it doesn't

There are some days after work all I want is some baby play or snuggle time. Then other days I am already touched out. Either way my daughter wants to be crawling or snuggling on me. I love her, and sometimes I also don't want to be touched from today to forever 😂. Both are true at the same

Scrolling through Instagram, or whatever social media you use, at 2am with a sleeping baby on your chest will quietly destroy you if you let it. Shortly after my daughter was born, I found myself watching different moms who seemed to have it all together. Some mom saying she already had her body

My daughter wants to be on me. Near me. In my space. All the time. I love it. Also, some days I am so touched out I could cry. Both are true. Society will tell you that responding to your kid creates dependency. That showing up for their need to be close sets them up to struggle as adults. I&

Nobody taught you what to do with your anger. They just taught you to make it disappear. Or that it is the only ok emotion to show. I was sitting in my car after a hard week; Nora not sleeping, a full caseload, my body doing its whole thing, and I felt this wave of anger rise up. My first though

It’s Tuesday and I already feel like I am failing at everything. Mom guilt doesn't care if you stayed home all day or worked a full shift. It finds you either way. Today and yesterday I took my baby to daycare early. I felt guilty for this. Like I was not spending enough time with her. L

You will see a post I made about what "enough" is. This is a follow-up cause I find we need reminding as people. 😊 We swapped keeping up with the Joneses for keeping up with the best version of ourselves. Somehow that bar feels even harder to reach. Some days I shower, brush my teeth,

That voice telling you you're not enough? It's not the truth. It's a habit. I noticed it most at 3am a few months after my daughter was born. She had been screaming for what felt like hours. It turned out to be her tooth. I tried everything. Rocking her, nursing her, singing to her.