you never know how lonely life gets when your own family has not even tried to reach out to you. In my days of addiction and truly being a piece of shit my "family" still got in contact with me. years later..I'm mentally worse than ever and have no one to even talk to.

this is too much and too hard to even type but if I don't then I don't think I will do anything about it. we have been through a lot. and we have a relationship that used to be like xanax for me. I could literally be in the same room with you and feel so safe and good. I never thought that