51 .. Saturday feelings ✨✨✨✨

51 on a Saturday…I had to say today….mmmm..

Vulnerability… Let’s see who reads this like for real…

🤍 My Story: At 51…. Understanding grief isn’t just when someone dies. We grieve loss of love, friendships, health, livelihood….

🤍 How I Felt/Feel: Sad, mad, scared, disappointed & heartbroken.

🤍 My Takeaways: *We all have our own agency. Outside of the Lord’s transition 🙏🏽of a loved one, the rest is out of our control. * I have to stop 🛑worrying about people judging me for my true feelings. I have to stop 🛑watering them down to make other’s comfortable. *Holding them in is dangerous; heartbreak 💔not only affects the mind but the body and heartache can be a true killer 🕊️ (witnessed).

🖤 I’ve got to be okay with being out of F*cks to give. I feel an extra one creeping up from time to time. 50 was more than enough.

🖤 It took a little longer with the last 💔 to realize he really was a narcissist, and he really was gaslighting me. He just didn’t understand the definition of the two. I made the right decision…but I still grieve…

💎 the final gems…. NO, we don’t always have “a lot to discuss” …. NO, absolving yourself is not an apology it’s you removing your responsibility. YES, if an apology is about how you feel, then you ARE microagressive, YES, it still hurts cause I can’t get my minutes back (even on the unlimited plan) and NO, I don’t want no scrubs… oops sorry guys lol 😂 got off track (like they can really see this 🤷🏽‍♀️) 💔 My love had no limits but it should have…