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A book for healing
R E L E A S E - write, let go, become
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A book for healing
R E L E A S E - write, let go, become
#deepquestions #mentalhealth #healing #journaling #promptsforyou
Why the two sons that I love more than life itself, who I’d give my last drop of blood to and the very last breath of air to and protected and defended when they couldn’t do so for themselves couldn’t or wouldn’t find a minute to say hello or goodbye, I love you or I hate you, I want nothing to do with you ever again or I’ve been going through something for the past three years and need to sort it out but I’ll come back to you eventually. I just need an answer as to why my baby cut off all communication with me out of the blue no reason or explanation or whether I did or said something to cause it so I could have the opportunity to make amends and ask forgiveness for it. I don’t understand why his older brother who (doesn’t want to be put in the middle) and loves us both, wouldn’t want to help bring us back together again instead of letting us grow more estranged with time. I taught them that they could always talk to me about anything no matter how big or how small or hurtful it might be or seem to be and I would listen, never pass judgment but I’d help them through it with an open mind and loving heart. I wanted them to love each other and be there for each other when I’m gone so that my youngest wouldn’t be alone without someone that loved him as strongly as I do because I lost my mother when I was 29 years old and I know how that feels. The thing that worries me the most is that if I die before he decides to come back to me and work things out, he’ll spend the rest of his days filled with regret wishing he had one last chance to speak to me or feel and know all the love I’ve always had for him in my heart and my soul! This is what I torture my mind with and cannot stop overthinking and I’ve tried and will continue to try so that I might find a tiny spark of peace and happiness in my life before it’s over. 🥺😭🙏🏻
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