I thought I was happy...
I wonder if I can never be happy... If good things happen, there will always be bad things...
A little happiness does not last long...
The first thing I don't like is yesterday, M! LK collaboration cafe I went to and talked to Mko-chan. I heard that my friend got two trading cards of Nito-kun, and that child was also a fan of Nito-kun and didn't have it, so I gave it to him and exchanged LINE, and I thanked him in the evening, but it wasn't even read... I wasn't blocked so I was busy and couldn't see it, but is it natural that I didn't even reply or read it even after a day? I don't know what's going on, so maybe I'm alone, but it's kind of painful and annoying. I was happy to be with you, but why didn't you refuse the LINE exchange 🥲? Why did you receive it? When I first asked for a trade, I kept refusing. I can't help thinking that it's already past... But I was angry, so I reported it and blocked it... I know it's too much. Just leave it alone. But I can't forgive 😭 I'm small. I thought that there were people who wanted to pay for it, and my friend said he would give me both of them, because I didn't want to pay for it 🥲 so I got even more angry 😭
The second is Mr. N, a 40-year-old who became friends at the same dispatch destination. Although the dispatch company is different, I started talking to a common good friend and became friends. One day, when I was sending him to Kashiwa Station, I talked about various things and exchanged LINE. Sometimes we had LINE, but before and after hospitalization? I didn't read it and left it as it is. So today, when my younger brother who came to stay checked if Mko-chan was blocking me, I found out that I was blocked. It was a shock. I was about to distrust humans... Because I'm a mentally ill patient? Did your husband tell you? Self-judgment? Without saying anything? Until then, we were communicating normally on LINE? Why does everyone do cowardly things without saying no if they don't like it? Are you happy to give mental pain? Have you ever thought about the feelings of a given person? Do you think you can just block it? My friend said it's better not to get involved anymore, but you can sue for mental distress.... I don't. But it's for my friends, people at my main workplace in the evening, and people who support me. If I were alone, I would probably take some action. Because things happened in quick succession that made me worry about drinking clothes.
But I'll forget it already
Forget and do my best happily. Both work and promotion activities. Otherwise, I will become an ugly person...
I don't want to... I want to live hard and meet my husband and mother again in the next life.
So I don't carelessly exchange LINE messages or talk anymore. It was a good study.
And even though I was trying to change my mind, my younger brother tormented me again...
Please don't add to my worries...
Who caused the disease to come back...
Please don't make me suffer...
Don't bother me...
Please...
Happiness did not last 💧 Human distrust Be yourself.I want to be happy I want to do my best
私も似たような経験があります。特にファンコミュニティでの交流は期待も大きいため、突然の無視やSNSでのブロックなどで強いショックを受けることが多いですよね。M!LKのコラボカフェでの出会いやトレカ交換といった楽しみが、相手の反応一つで心の傷になることもあります。 精神的な疲労は、時に身体の不調や病気の再発にもつながりやすいので、自分ひとりで抱え込まず信頼できる人や専門家に相談することが重要です。また、SNSやLINEの交流は相手の状況が見えにくいため、返信がなくても必ずしも悪意があるとは限らないことも頭に入れておくと心が少し楽になるかもしれません。 一方で、自分の気持ちを大切にして「もう不用意にLINE交換しない」「無理に相手に合わせない」と決めることも、自己防衛としてとても大切です。私は自分も以前、人間関係でトラブルが続いた時、意識的に距離を置くことでストレスが減りました。 さらに、推し活や自分の好きなことに集中する時間を持つことが、前向きな気持ちの維持につながりました。推し活は気持ちの支えになるだけでなく、同じ趣味を持つ仲間との新たなつながりを築くきっかけにもなります。 「幸せは長く続かない」という気持ちは誰にでもあり得ますが、苦しい時期も必ず過ぎ去ります。その間、「頑張りたい」「じぶんらしく」という気持ちを忘れず、小さな幸せを見つける努力を続けることが大切です。私もこの経験から、少しずつですが自己肯定感を取り戻しつつあります。辛い思いをしている人も、決して一人ではないことを知ってほしいです。
