My Testimony
Matthew 11:28-30 ESV
[28] Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. [29] Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. [30] For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
I was raised in a house without Faith, Though I was exposed to God by way of my Grandparents, I didn't know what to believe. I was curious of course, as every little kid would be, I prayed to many different Beliefs, Buddha, Egyptian, Greek, none of them answered me. Once when I was 4, I was upset because I couldn't find my favorite dress for my Barbie doll, so after exhausting myself looking I sat down and I prayed to God, "God, If you are real can you please make the dress appear in front of me Amen" Next thing you know, it was right there on-top of the pile of toys I had dumped out prior, I got spooked of course because I didn't know who God really was. Eventually I forgot and moved on, God was in the back of my mind, On occasions I would pray still to Him, never admitting that I thought he was real and never took the opportunity to know Him, But God was still calling me all this time.
When I was in Grade 3 my Mother decided to pull me out of public school and Homeschool me instead, Her decision was what was best for me since I was severely bullied by the other children. Eventually I made friends with kids in the neighborhood I grew up in, One of them invited me to go to the church just down the street from my house, there I joined a youth group that kept me away from trouble. Though I still didn't admit or care to join in on learning about God, I felt at peace and safe there. Some of the lessons did stick with me that my youth pastor taught, and I used that as a guide to be a better person. I was just stuck on what Catholics told me that since I wasn't baptised as a baby I was going to hell no matter what, so I figured there wasn't anything that could change that.
I did however have this cross, from my great grandmother, which I kept with me and cherished because I always felt safe holding onto the necklace.See I had this deep rooted fear of the Devil, I felt like I could get possessed just like in the horror films ( I know that's ridiculous, but that's how I felt), It was easy for me to believe that the Devil was real and powerful.Over the years I wasn't against God, I just wasn't sure If God was who people said he was, I believed that something created Life, I just never read the Bible or believed who Jesus was and what he did, I based everything on movies and T.V shows and what people told me, God still waited patiently for me.
Now I was 26 years old and in a relationship, The guy I was with wasn't treating me well, We fought all the time and he Lied to me a lot, I was feeling depressed and drained of all my energy, A friend of his who I was trying to accept that she was a part of his life and trying to be friends with, introduced me to what she called white magic, she told me that I would need a guide and that hers was Hades and Persephone but only strong witches could have more than one, she told me this would help my relationship, She was kind to me and I felt though previously jealous of her, like she became a good friend, So I started taking her advise, I searched my memories and looked for symbols that called to me, I landed on the butterfly and correlated that to a greek goddess name Psyche. The night that I was starting my ritual to ask her to be my guide, The cross necklace I had hanging by my bed had fallen down, I felt Jesus in the room with me, It scared me so I stopped what I was doing. Instead I just played with a crystals witch set that told the future ( I know, silly silly me) and I lied to her saying that I had successfully got Psyche as my guide because I didn't want to admit I got scared and what had happened ( I didn't understand it myself), So she gave me tips and a potion for protection.Things started to get even worse with my ex, The night I decided to leave him, I prayed to God to help me get out of that situation, After calling out to God and praying, God led me out and Finally I was safe again, Stepping outside in the sun I felt the warmth of His light, I felt my life changing! of course my ex still was trying to pursue me ( details can't be shared ) so I went to court to seek an order against him, During which I also lost my mother to septis. Through the trails I prayed seeking comfort and guidance from God. He helped me through the grief and helped heal my soul, God gave me another chance, He taught me to open my heart and not to be afraid anymore. The Bible verse I live by now is John 4:7-8 Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love.
Now I was far from perfect still ( Not that anyone is perfect) I was practicing sin and I still didn't have a Bible and wasn't reading his word I was only praying. A year later I met a new man who together we started to believe in God, together we went to church, we got a Bible and we started to learn the real truth, One by one God Guided us, He delivered us from sins. In July 2023 I got baptized at Hope City Church and fully devoted my life to Jesus. That is why being baptized was important to me, because I have felt God's love, I have learned to love myself through God's eyes, to love those around me and to only accept love from others and to forgive hate. I am so thankful for everything God has done for me, So I pray, God, I give my Life fully to you, Let your will be done not mine, In your love you have called to me to know you, led me to trust you, so I bound my life with yours. I Surround myself with your love, please let me grow in the knowledge of your love. In Jesus name AMEN.
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