Failing
You ever just feel like giving up? Like shutting down? Downing the bottle of bills? That was me this week. Everybody always tells me how nice I am and how wonderful my attitude is for 2 in the morning and I always respond, I get paid to be happy 😂 that’s how I feel somedays trying to get through. And then once I get paid, every stupid penny goes towards rent and bills and I feel like I can never move forward. I just want to know what it feels like to be genuinely happy. Two marriages later and I have nothing to show for it. Happiness is something that’s paid for in my book and I just want to know what it feels like to smile and laugh and not overthink it. No matter what salad I take or amount of vitamins to cure pcos is being promoted, I will forever be the girl that has to be paid to receive a smile and I just want more. I’m tired of it.
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