Am I wrong to feel the way I do?

Oh honey, reading your story hit home for so many of us. You are absolutely NOT wrong to feel the way you do! Your feelings are completely valid, and anyone in your shoes would likely feel a mix of hurt, confusion, and yes, jealousy. It’s tough when you’re in an 'on-off' situation because the boundaries are often blurry, and expectations can get messed up. You're trying to figure out where you stand, and then things like this happen, making everything even more unclear. First, on your birthday – that's a huge one. Your birthday is a day to feel special and celebrated, especially when you're far from home and going through a hard time. The fact that he barely acknowledged it, let alone didn't do anything, after you explicitly said you wanted it to be special, speaks volumes. It shows a lack of consideration and effort, which is really painful. It's not about the gifts, but the thought and recognition. Many of us have been there, hoping for a gesture and ending up disappointed. It makes you feel unimportant, and that’s a heavy feeling to carry, especially from someone you're involved with. Now, fast forward to him going out of town to celebrate another girl's birthday, someone he just met a few weeks ago, and posting about it? That's a double whammy. It's completely understandable why you'd feel jealous and upset. It feels like a direct comparison, and unfortunately, it looks like he's putting more effort into a new acquaintance than into you, especially after neglecting your special day. This kind of behavior can really mess with your head and make you question your worth in the relationship. That sad yellow character on your selfie with the blue question marks really captures the mood here – it's like your heart is asking 'what's going on?' and 'why me?'. In an on-off dynamic, this kind of inconsistency is often a huge red flag. It creates instability and leaves you constantly guessing about where you stand. It's exhausting! Maybe it's time to have a serious 'let's chat' with yourself about what you truly deserve and what kind of commitment you need in a relationship. You mentioned 'life has been life-ing,' which is so relatable, but a partner should be a source of support and comfort, not additional stress or heartbreak. Take some time to really process these emotions. Journaling or talking to trusted friends can help you sort through everything and gain perspective. If you decide to talk to him, be clear about how his actions made you feel, focusing on your emotions rather than accusations. But also, consider if this pattern is sustainable for your happiness. You deserve someone who consistently makes you feel valued, respected, and cherished, not just 'on' occasion. Your feelings are a compass, and right now, they're pointing towards something that isn't sitting right with you. Trust that instinct, girl!