Youngho adulting day 2
Chat I’m stressed abt the process of becoming what I thought I saw myself doing. Reason why I said though is bc I didn’t know it be all this shit. I kinda js wanted to get the bag bc I’m young rn but also build it up bc when I’m older… dawg ima be tired fr. Like lowkey im even tired now working now😭. It may stem from “wanting to chill” but fr I do work ngl, I have a full time job and I work per diem. So im ready to a career switch. I js wanna go to a trade get this shit over w/ and yeaaaaa. I can’t stop thinking abt my man💔 but who knows if saying that even feels right anymore or meaningful. I feel like I have a chemical brain inbalance bc why do I feel this way and act this way. It’s honestly pathetic. Yes I’m taking it day by day and heal as I go along w/ growing but damnnnnn I cannot stand being this type of uncomfortable. It’s good to be uncomfortable in life bc being comfortable gets u stuck but I don’t like this one. Ngl chat, I did text him last night… I missed him sm , ik get up but it was raining . My tears were fresh and I at least sent a voice memo first then called. I couldn’t stop the Indra of us working it out and being tg but he said he cannot get his life tg overnight which hurts bc it’s true. I wish I can do something abt it but what would he learn? What type of man will he become? How does one grow? I do help him though in the sense of pushing for jobs for him :/ but it js hurts. Been listening to sad songs for awhile now. Idk if if the level of pain I feel and hear in the song or that’s my comfort rn. Ima be so real ima send a voice note , tell him I love and miss him til I cannot no more ( that may take a while ) and doing more. Ik men care more when u care less. I do believe that. Seen it happen. But like I said chemical imbalance in my brain .
Navigating the complexities of young adulthood can often feel overwhelming, especially when juggling a full-time job, side work, and the emotional weight of relationships. From personal experience, I understand how taxing it can be to constantly think about the future while managing present challenges. There’s a real pressure to 'get the bag' and secure financial stability early on, but that ambition sometimes clashes with emotional fatigue and the desire for comfort. Switching careers or considering trades as a way to fast-track growth is a practical approach many young people take to reduce burnout. I found that exploring trade skills or vocational training can not only offer a clearer path but also provide a sense of control amid chaos. It’s important to acknowledge that feeling uncomfortable during this transition is part of growth—as discomfort forces us to confront limitations and build resilience. Relationship struggles often add an extra layer of emotional stress. When caring deeply but facing uncertainty about the other person’s readiness or growth, it can feel like a tug-of-war inside the mind. One coping strategy is to communicate honest feelings, like sending voice memos that express vulnerability, which can be healing both for oneself and the other party. However, it’s equally crucial to recognize when to set boundaries to protect your own mental health. Many of us experience a kind of 'chemical imbalance'—a mix of emotions and mood fluctuations that feel confusing or even 'pathetic' at times. You’re not alone in this; these feelings often reflect the intensity of change and emotional investment, rather than personal failure. Engaging with music that resonates with your current mood can provide comfort, but balancing it with uplifting or motivating content is beneficial too. Finally, taking life day by day and allowing yourself to heal while growing is key. Growth is seldom linear, and embracing discomfort allows us to avoid stagnation. Remember, it’s okay to seek support, whether from friends, mentors, or professionals, as you navigate the ups and downs of young adulthood. You’re building not only your career but also emotional strength and self-awareness, which will serve you well in the years ahead.
