still on hiatus

It's easy to feel guilty when you hit the 'pause' button, especially when you're used to constantly creating or being productive. But honestly, sometimes a hiatus isn't just a break; it's a vital period of rebuilding. For me, this summer has turned into one of those essential pauses. The text on my recent photo, 'on hiatus but it's summer time,' really sums it up. It’s a time to step back, reflect, and gather strength, especially when dealing with the unique challenges of ADHD and BPD. Navigating life with ADHD and BPD means that my energy levels and capacity for creative output can fluctuate wildly. During busy periods, I often push myself to the brink, leading to burnout. This hiatus is my way of proactively avoiding that crash. It's about giving myself grace to process, to heal, and to simply exist without the pressure of constant performance. Rebuilding for me looks like a few things. First, it's about reconnecting with my passion for music purely for myself. Writing songs without the pressure of a deadline or audience expectation is incredibly therapeutic. It’s a space where my mind, which can often feel chaotic with ADHD, finds focus and flow. Secondly, preparing for summer session isn't just about academics; it's about structuring my days in a way that supports my mental well-being. Learning is a form of self-care for me, but it requires a calm and organized mind. And then there's the self-discovery aspect. During this time, I’m embracing my personal style more than ever. You know, like that dramatic black eyeliner and vibrant red eyeshadow, topped with bright red hair – it’s more than just makeup; it’s a form of expressing the intense emotions and creativity I feel bubbling beneath the surface. It’s part of my identity, a visual representation of my inner world as I rebuild and redefine what 'me' means. The piercing above my eyebrow feels like a little badge of resilience too! I've learned that a true hiatus isn't just about stopping; it's about actively engaging in self-care and activities that nourish your soul. It’s about being kind to yourself when your mental health needs extra attention. For anyone else out there feeling burnt out or wrestling with mental health conditions, remember that taking a break isn't a failure – it's a strategy. It's an investment in your long-term creative health and overall happiness. As I slowly but surely rebuild my energy and creative spark, I'm already looking forward to getting back to creating UGC for my amazing community. This period has given me so much new perspective and inspiration, which I can't wait to pour into new content. It’s a reminder that even when you’re on hiatus, growth is still happening. Much love to you all, and I'll be back stronger and more inspired than ever!