I just edited out all of the long pauses so I’m sorry for the state of this video. I couldn’t bring myself to record it again
Losing a loved one, especially someone as influential as a grandmother, is a profound experience that reshapes your perspective on creativity and everyday life. My grandmother was not only a talented artist but also my knitting mentor, passing down skills and artistic inspiration that continue to guide me. Since her passing, I've found it challenging to maintain my usual content schedule and focus on projects with the same enthusiasm. The process of knitting has become more than just a hobby; it’s a way to connect with her and keep her memory alive. I've been relearning knitting with a different approach, which hasn’t been easy—my recently made scarf looks a bit wonky! However, every stitch feels like a tribute and a form of therapy. Honoring her by finishing the Sophie Hood, a project we've both treasured, brings a sense of purpose amid the sorrow. Grief often disrupts creative flow, but it can also deepen it over time. I’ve paused my usual series like the "Long A$$ List of Projects" and house organization content because I needed the space to process and create authentically. This pause has opened up room for more spontaneous and meaningful posts, even if they stray from my usual themes. If you find yourself in a similar space, whether mourning or simply reevaluating your creative journey, remember that it’s okay to take breaks and adjust your pace. Creativity is deeply personal and tied to our emotional wellbeing. Using creative outlets to honor loved ones, process emotions, or rediscover yourself can be healing. Thank you for being here and understanding that sometimes the most important creations aren’t finished projects but the emotional resilience and memories we nurture along the way.



































