I disappeared!
I disappeared for a while. Apologies.
At some point I lost a lot of what felt like everything. Tangible things, stability, direction… and honestly, parts of my practice too. The connection I used to feel so naturally just went quiet. Or maybe I did. The things I had worked so hard to build slipped through my fingers in an instant, and for a while, I didn’t know how to come back to any of it.
So I didn’t force it.
I started small. Sitting outside again. Paying attention. Letting things be simple instead of trying to make them meaningful. And eventually, something shifted.
I’m not the same as I was before, and I don’t think I’m meant to be. This feels quieter, but stronger. Less about proving anything, and more about understanding and growing into myself again.
So this is me, coming back!
Not perfect, not finished, but rooted again in a way that feels real.
If you’ve ever felt like you lost everything, spiritually or otherwise, you’re not alone in that. And it’s not the end of your path, sometimes it’s just the part where it begins again.
Coming back to anything after a while is hard, especially when you’re forced to face yourself. But I’d hardly be a daughter of the morrigan if I didn’t claw my way back up.
Anyways! I missed you all dearly, and I’ll try my best to make some more posts soon!
When I first experienced the kind of spiritual loss described here, I felt completely isolated in my confusion and pain. Like the author, I found that trying to force a connection only led to frustration. Instead, taking the time to simply be—whether sitting outside or quietly observing my surroundings—helped me reconnect with a sense of peace and groundedness. It’s important to remember that spiritual recovery isn’t a race. The metaphor of being "not perfect, not finished, but rooted again" resonates deeply with anyone on this path. It’s about allowing ourselves the grace to change and evolve rather than striving to reclaim exactly what was lost. I also appreciated the reference to being a "daughter of the Morrigan," which symbolizes strength, resilience, and reclaiming one’s power after hardship. For those walking a similar path—whether identifying as Irish pagan, witchcraft practitioners, or simply seekers of healing—embracing your unique identity can be a crucial part of the healing process. Finally, sharing these kinds of experiences openly online, as this author does, helps build a supportive community for anyone who feels disconnected. Finding others who understand and share similar challenges can provide motivation and comfort as you continue your spiritual journey. Remember, sometimes the end of one chapter becomes the beginning of a richer, more authentic life.
Not to intrude ... but this hit me hard and perfect timing for me to come across.. This is how I've felt for a while now and have wanted to reset and refocus and find ME again.... I've been thinking a lot more about it lately and today with the crappy weather and not being able to go anywhere.... I had enough... So with that said and today being my 52nd birthday, I have decided to Reset, Refocus and Restart..... I'm scared and overwhelmed Thank you .. Tracy 💜🌙🕯️