ADHD + MOOD STABILIZER
💊 A Little Chemical Stability with a Splash of Iced Coffee
I used to think I was just lazy. Or dramatic. Or maybe just really bad at “adulting.”
But no. I’ve got a brain that runs 1000 tabs at once, none of them ever fully loading, and I’ve been raw-dogging life with a caffeine addiction and high-functioning panic for way too long.
Now I take 30mg of Adderall and 150mg of Bupropion just to feel like a person. Like a normal, focused, semi-stable human who can finish a task without spiraling into existential dread or forgetting what I walked into the room for.
And no, coffee doesn’t do shit.
Let’s be clear. It tastes like joy. It feels like a hug. It’s part of my emotional support ritual. But energy? Functionality? Absolutely not. Do I still drink it religiously every morning like it’s about to change my life? Yes. Every single time.
Without meds, I’m a walking thought spiral. Overstimulated by 8am. Tired but wired. I start seven things and finish none. I talk too fast, forget what I’m saying mid-sentence, and cry over texts I forgot to answer. I scroll, I overthink, I crash. It’s annoying being stuck in a loop that never shuts up.
But with these two meds?
I feel like I can breathe.
I can think in full thoughts.
I can function. Like actually function.
It’s not perfect. I still forget to eat. I still self-sabotage for sport. I still romanticize the idea of being “naturally organized” and “waking up at 6am just because.” But now I have a fighting chance.
Needing help to feel normal doesn’t mean you’re weak. It just means you’re finally giving your brain what it needs.
So yeah. I take my meds. I drink coffee like it matters. I get overwhelmed. I keep going. Mentally unstable, but at least I’m trying.

















































































































































The adhd coffee addiction that isn't even beneficial is SO REALLL