A Mom I Am

Being a mom is something I went back and forth with growing up. I didn’t want to mess up any kids if I had them but I couldn’t imagine a life without them. And forget all the complications that come with being pregnant. But alas when my husband and I started dating I couldn’t see a life where we weren’t parents. February of 2019 my first OBGYN appt ever and I was most likely going to need medical assistance to have children. My likelihood of having kids was slim to none. February of 2020 my husband and I got married and then the world shut down. We were getting used to each other, and figuring out this new world we were living in. On January 28th 2022 I decided to take a pregnancy test. I was late and I hadnt been late since I had started BC to regulate. I had taken so many tests in the past I was absolutely positive it would be negative. I hated getting my hopes up just to have them crushed. Sleepily I left the test on the counter, washed my hands and went to check. Positive. My adrenaline kicked in and my heart was racing. Wait, what? Positive? Am I reading this right. I woke up my husband and with a shaky breath holding back nervous laughter and tears I whispered “It’s positive”. I took three more tests that morning we were in shock. I needed to see the word pregnant on the test before I believed it. I had been praying and praying and finally God decided it was time. Becoming a mom to my first born was a whirlwind.

Only 4 months after giving birth to my first, on January 7th 2023 I got my second positive test. This was an even bigger shock, because I was barely getting a grip on motherhood and now I was so blessed to have more.

Both pregnancies were pretty difficult for me. I’m blessed I didn’t have the complications some women have to welcome their babies, but I was going through it. I had never been so exhausted and sick in my life. I quit my job I got sick so much, and I could barely stay awake most of the time. But when those babies came I was in a dream.

My first delivery I developed high blood pressure and was induced at 38 weeks exactly. I waited 13 hours in a hospital waiting room chair before I was taken to the back to begin my induction and that sucked all on its own. But my second I went into labor naturally. Well as naturally as I could have because the night before I fell. It was 8 pm, I was going to the potty when I heard a noise, a faint scratching. I looked up to the vent directly above the toilet to find a scorpion crawling out and it proceeded to fall. I threw my body off the toilet pelvis first landed on my hands and knees and smacked ym shoulder into the wall. I heard the scorpion fall to the floor and could hear it scurrying around. My husband ran in, killed it, and helped me up all while carrying our 11 month old in his arms. Needless to say less than 4 hours I began feeling contractions. I chalked it up to braxton hicks but by 7:15 am they were strong. An hour later I was 5 cm dilated and in active labor.

I always felt like my life was boring and pretty lame, but I can honestly say ever since entering motherhood it has been anything but. There hasn’t been one dull moment since that first day I got a positive to today taking care of my 20 month old and 8 month old. What a life to live. 🥰#motherhood #lemon8challenge