I don’t wanna give anyone else more pain

Living with depression often feels like an endless battle with dark, overwhelming emotions that weigh heavily on the mind. The raw honesty in the lines "If you are so depressed, why are you still here" and "Can't stand the thought of them getting that" reflects the internal conflict and judgment many face daily. I have found that these feelings can sometimes lead us to destructive habits, like drowning painful memories in alcohol, which only prolongs the suffering. It's crucial to recognize the signs of self-blame and guilt when "shit hit the wall" moments happen, as these feelings are common but not necessary to dwell on. One powerful way to start healing is by seeking support from trusted friends, family, or mental health professionals, turning the running down the hall thoughts into conversations that foster understanding rather than isolation. Personally, embracing vulnerability has helped me break the cycle of pain I was unintentionally passing on to others. Opening up about my struggles allowed me to replace self-blame with self-compassion and gradually find healthier outlets for emotional distress, such as creative expression or physical activity. Remember, while depression can cloud judgment, choosing to stay and confront these feelings is a sign of immense courage. There is hope and strength in acknowledging the pain without letting it define your worth. Together, by sharing our stories and coping strategies, we create a community of healing that prevents more pain and fosters resilience.